With my head slowly clearing, I whisper to myself “Is that the kind of ‘real man’ that I am?”
Feeling the warm hand on my shoulder, I turn my head groggily and hear a concerned voice “Ted… Porn video I will do whatever it takes to stop him…” Turning away again, I hear her stand to follow me and I lead to the hall “You deserve better then that…” I slide on my shoes, and turn to give her a parting hug “Goodnight Bellissa”
My sleep is choppy and uneven that night, my thoughts locking and clouding in what would become a common dream, focusing around the conflict in my heart, respecting a dear friend, holding a childhood bond, the growing lust, and the new purer feelings, the desire to spend my life




















